Thank you note to the birds.

I woke up truly thinking it was Saturday…it’s Tuesday. Anyways.

I woke up and had no desire to get out of bed. I am pretty good at staying optimistic most of the time, but some days are better than others. I’ve been quarantined with my parents (so very grateful for those humans) for the past two months and am moving out in a week or so, and I will tell you what - being around nature during the start of this pandemic made me truly appreciate it 1000% times more, as I typically live in cities where finding a patch of grass outside your door is not common.

I get woken up by the sound of the little birdies chirping each morning and honestly, I sit there wondering:

Yeah, I Googled this. My search history is hysterical.

My mind goes into a million different places, thinking about what they all must be talking about. I know I sound a little mad, but hey - #quarantinebrain. Are they gossiping about the cute little cardinal over on the tall pine tree across the way? Did Sally the bluejay get dumped by Billy the blue jay? THIS IS WHAT I THINK ABOUT HAHA. I love it. They are loud as hell so it’s hard to ignore them.

I had been living out of a suitcase for the better part of the 7 months pre-COVID, so when this hit I moved back into a room at my parents since they so lovingly welcomed me in - so grateful for that. They live on a lot of land that I’ve really come to think as magical…I look out the window and sometimes think I am in Ireland. Lush green grass, a little pond where ducks play all day and birds fly above through the trees that create a canopy over it. I find pure joy in seeing birds of all kind fly through, their colors popping against the greenery.

It’s the simple things.

My favorite moments of life recently have been made up of the simplest moments: sitting on lawn chairs outside in the grass, underneath those birds chirping away and laughing with a few loved ones from 6+ feet apart. That’s it. That is the STUFF.

Having been truly left to sit with just myself these past few weeks - no significant other (FELLAS, hi!), no babies, no job, no home of my own, no idea where the hell I’ll land next - I really did realize that in fact, I have everything I need to be happy at all times, right under my nose. Granted, I do hope to find those things in my future - but I now realize that you don’t need the things you want right now to feel truly happy in this moment.

I have an incredible family that supports me, amazing best friends who help me through anything and make me laugh daily, a roof over my head, faith that things will be OK, a hard and solid work ethic that I know will land me back on my feet - and most of all, I have my little birds to watch to keep me sane as I take this day by day.